10 things you’re ashamed of

1. I didn’t learn enough from him while he was still around, even though I lived with him for so many years. I should’ve asked more.
2. I didn’t know she did all of that for us all those years until it stopped happening. I should’ve thanked her more.
3. I’m never going to be able to apologize and be friends with her. Too much has happened and I can’t get over it.
4. I shouldn’t have said that about her.  I just expected more out of her.
5. I shouldn’t have told you. They say that I’d regret the things I didn’t do more than the things I did do, but I should’ve known you can’t handle that sort of thing.
6. If I could talk to my kid-self I’d advise her not to do it, but kids are curious creatures, you know?
7. I should’ve stood up for myself more instead of suffered in silence. I was just scared she’d hate me.
8. I wish I didn’t go back to you the second time.
9. I shouldn’t have left you there alone.  Even though you’re much older than me and I thought you were strong enough to handle yourself, I realize now that it must’ve felt like I abandoned you.
10. I shouldn’t have yelled at you like that, I was just shocked and upset.  Now that I look back on what happened, I just feel like a huge fool and I remind myself why I get quiet when I get mad—it’s just smarter and neater that way.  I honestly don’t know why, I just really had to let loose that day! Hahahaha~  I thank my lucky stars every day that both of you are still standing by me after the way I behaved that day. >~<